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Scattered Thought ‘24

Feeling pain I’ve become accustomed to numbing myself from

Whether distractions of visual interactions, spirits or cannabis


I avoided feeling my feelings and settled for bliss


Because the world would call it empath, but I know it’s part of my gifts


I feel deeply and hard and pick up on the atmosphere


It isn’t always pleasant, so it became a thing I fear


In my surrender to Yahweh, I laid down those distractions


So now I take these emotions back to Him 


To help me work through them, 


Rather than avoid them


And before liquor ever touched these lips or weed smoke hit my lungs


I always had this pad and pen


So now I take it back


To where all of this began……. 


JAN 14, 2024

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