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Scattered Thought 08242026

 

No soft spaces to land

That would be the story of my life

No spaces for vulnerability to be safe

So these walls have been fortified

And I have continued to perpetuate a lie of

“Everything is okay”

Meanwhile dying inside

Trying inside

To navigate this space of sensitivity, reactivity, vulnerability

and wanting to know the real me

God showed me that these walls have been so well structured,

that I have not only kept others out,

I have kept Him out

And not only have I created a barrier between myself and them and HIM

I’ve kept me from knowing me

These walls haven’t created freedom

They’ve become my captivity


08/24/2026

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