lolamarya - The Voice

If I had it to do all over again, things would be different. But I have made decisions and must live with the consequences. Although things are not ideal, I have to trust and believe that God is here with me and will continue to keep me and guide me, as long as I put my trust in Him. I will not continue to do wrong and say, "Lord, bless my mess." I am making a conscious decision to follow Him and remain in His will, despite of the circumstances that I caused while I was outside of His will.

what would life be like without music? Life without music would be unlivable. Ask me anything

Acoustic guitar does something to my soul. The Saxophone can sing notes no voice can hit. The bass can pull me into a vibe like no other. Keys... well keys are like a chameleon and can become just the sound that you need. Drums are the heart of the band. The electric guitar can just take me to another place. And the right vocalist... well the right vocalist can simply bring heaven right down to my ears.

Somewhere and do not remember when I wrote it: I cried myself to sleep again, but not because of the obvious. I finally allowed myself to feel and the pain hit me like a bullet aimed straight for and then lodged in my heart. I have experienced heartbreak. But I pride myself on never having fallen for any man and keeping my emotions guarded, so why does it come from friends? I suppose I cannot be the keeper of my own emotions, yet I stll try.

I feel like I have so much to look forward to, yet at the same time, I feel stuck for now.   Why do I continually find myself in this pattern? Seemingly I have, but I need more; so much more.

This makes me want to go to a church that has no agenda, no schedule, isn't concerned about being a production and just go worship.

Yes I will continually and cryptically say that I am SO ready for the next phase until it is time for me to actually walk in it.  I am more excited the more that I see is waiting for me.  I am ready to walk into a land full of opportunities and I really feel as though God is moving me into the place that he has already blessed and prepared for me. And although not everything is ideal, I am looking at the silver lining and looking at the promises of God which means that no matter what the circumstances may look like, HE has the last say and I will trust in that. Boy, oh boy it is funny to me that I feel I am being led to a specific place for a specific reason.  I guess I am about to enter into a season of going into places I never wanted to be, but if I want to be in God's will, I have to go where He is leading me... More to come as it unfolds.....