Give me the space to breathe and figure out who I am
I’ve never had the opportunity to explore
I never had the air to express
So now I’m trying, but it’s difficult
And everyone has an opinion
But no one is inside of my head
No one knows my internal struggle or how many times I’ve thought of no longer living
Sometimes just waking up feels painful
Life is hard and I know we were never promised the breath of life without suffering
I’m trying to navigate my own
You may see me in a certain light,
But I still don’t know who I am
I’m tired of bleeding onto others and want to be healed
But I’m still finding the wounds and walls and doors that have been sealed
Surrender
Easily spoken but hard to action
I’m trying
43 years of who I am being ripped away and like a security blanket that has always been my solace,
Me protecting me needs to be stripped away
I’m still fighting with the promise because it feels like stepping off of a plank, into dead air
I guess that means I’m doubting God instead of walking in faith to know that He will always be there
lolamarya
November 2, 2024