Wednesday, February 7, 2024

Scattered Thought ‘24

Feeling pain I’ve become accustomed to numbing myself from

Whether distractions of visual interactions, spirits or cannabis


I avoided feeling my feelings and settled for bliss


Because the world would call it empath, but I know it’s part of my gifts


I feel deeply and hard and pick up on the atmosphere


It isn’t always pleasant, so it became a thing I fear


In my surrender to Yahweh, I laid down those distractions


So now I take these emotions back to Him 


To help me work through them, 


Rather than avoid them


And before liquor ever touched these lips or weed smoke hit my lungs


I always had this pad and pen


So now I take it back


To where all of this began……. 


JAN 14, 2024

THOUGHT….

This world is not a safe space

Every time I poke my head out, I am reminded of that

Of my need to protect myself


This world is not a safe space


Every time I trust, I see the fallacy in that


This world is not a safe space for me


But I want to be


Less guarded, emotional, vulnerable


Lord I don’t want to pull back from you


It is imperative that I don’t


Help me to navigate this unsafe space


While learning to put my trust in you


Feb, 5, 2024