Feeling like the old me
Wanting to retreat to my personal place of safety
I trusted too much, got comfortable too fast
Now I’m leery of those I gave access to
Body feeling tensed because of a whirlwind of emotions, but I can’t place them
What is this thing that I’m feeling?
What do I need to displace from this place of familiar uncomfortability
I don’t want to be here again
But here is just the doorway to a slippery slope of overwhelming chaos and I refuse to travel down that path again
Lord I recognize that I am not in a good space
I need you
Rescue me once again
Revive the light in me…. Rekindle the fire in me Lord….. once again
I’m not down a path of sin, but something has disconnected
I gave space to things I shouldn’t have and an obstacle has erected
I recognize that this is not where I want to be
I feel like the children of Israel in the wilderness.
Lord let me be a Caleb in this place
Take me through; let my heart’s posture remain surrendered to you
I recognize that this is not where I want to be
So rather than to succumb to these feelings Lord help me to fight so I can be where you want me to be.