Searching for the pieces of me I've lost along the way
Glimpses of who I was and the change I've become
Smiles at past times and in the same breath twinges of pain hit my core
Things I buried and subconsciously trying to forget….
But those things have become a part of me
Whether wanting to admit it or not
I operate from who I was and what I've become
No longer confident in the words that were previously spoken or the promises where I once housed my faith
I've become too far removed
And although my brain knows that gifts are given without repentance
and for the sins I've indulged in, I have repented
I am now somehow struggling with believing those promises
Held back for so many years, I now fear the liberty that was already obtained for me
Now captive by mentality, the sensation of bondage stronger than the reality of freedom
Lord renew my mind, refresh my spirit
Allow me to know your truth and fully comprehend the reality of who I am in your eyes
Take me back to the place of confidently being your called, your chosen and all but oblivious to the enemy's lies.